Inspiration

This week was a week of decisions.

I have to decide whether to change project group in school, decide whether to stay on the track i've planned for work, decide whether to go back to the church's fellowship group..

As my life revolves mainly around church, work, school and home.. These are considered rather big decisions for me. Let me elaborate more on each item..

~ Work ~
As much as I am in love with my job and the children in school, I am more often than not, pushed, run over, bull dozed by colleagues' words of discouragement. Yes, I have choose to advocate what my lecturers had planted in my head. I advocate for more free play and giving children the liberty to choose, the liberty to voice their opinion, the liberty to be who they are.  Many disagreed with me at work, but my children's progress is evident.

Without much directions from the teacher (yours truly), my children had learn to organize sitting arrangement, sorting, math, science concepts, most importantly, social skills, during free play. Previously i insisted that they be in groups even before I met them, and i realized, they are not together socially. They DIDN'T grow socially.. It took them more than 9 months, before they engaged in cooperative/ group play. This time round, it took them, including my special need boy, less than 2 weeks. Question?

Previously, I forced my children to colour endless, boring, worksheets from the very beginning, in the end, my children and I hardly get to talk, I thought I know them, but sadly, no. This term I am determine to focus on social/ emotional and language development, now my children are communicating with me confidently.

I am physically, emotionally and mentally drained. Yet, the children's smiles and progress inspires and energized me. I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to.

~School~
I love what I am learning, and how I apply it to my work (with the on-crashing waves of opposition). The thing i dread to do in school are the group assignment. Most of the time, it feels more like an individual project.

I wont even mention the excuses the others give but hey, look at me, I have a family, I have work, I have a life too.

I am also physically, emotionally and mentally drained. Yet, what I learn and applied to work gain children's smiles, that inspires and energized me. I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to.

~Church~
I have been even more stumbled and discouraged in the fellowship of other christians. So much so that I, became one of those who discouraged others. Thus, I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to do. 

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Why all that decisions?

Been reading "Life without limits" by Nick Vujicic, and compared to him, my circumstances are like the bacteria on a cockroach legs. His book inspired me and here is a little quote from his book. The attitude one should adopt for a better life!

" Pick A 'Tude


1. An attitude of gratitude
2. An attitude of action
3. An attitude of empathy
4. An attitude of forgiveness. "

Vujicic, N., J.. (2010) Life without limits. New York: Doubleday Religion.

I would say I am learning and practising item 1 and 4.. That explains why I am STILL doing what I do.
I am thankful to God for sustaining me, for granting me wisdom to plan, organize, execute what needs to be done for three classes, and then do what needs to be done for each project work there is.

To God be the glory!

another week gone!

It was an extremely tiring but AWESOME WEEK! the bread face i planned for my class activity went extremely well, im glad even childreb who werent close to me was willing to try...

However, i dont know if i'll be emotionally ok when i move back to teban, away from my nieces and nephews... Ahhh.. Well.. Will update more when i get back.. The tons of mess i have to clear is horrifying enough.. Bleah..

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I'm ALIVE!!!!

Yes!! Just so you know!! I am alive!! hahaha.. I know I haven blogged in the longest time, that's because I am swarmed by the 101 things to do..

So thank God I am alive!! hehe..

January had been fantastic! First of all, I want to thank God for granting me wisdom to cook for my sister and take care of my nephews and niece.. If you know me well enough, I DO NOT cook unless i really feel motivated to, which usually i am not, whats more waking up at 4am everyday to cook.. hee hee.. So yes, thank God for wisdom and courage to try even different dishes. I have never been so hardworking, as in looking up recipes online and researching on nutritional values in food.. hur hur.. I am so happy that my sister liked it.

2nd of all, work has been fantastic. When i asked God for wisdom to do activities with my children, the ideas that flooded my head was overwhelming, until my assistant teacher commented that i DO NOT have 8 hands to handle.. haha!

Running between 2 classes was hectic at first, but now it is managable. I really enjoyed and loved both class. Now instead of enjoying one class-ful of hugs, I get twice! Sure there are some children still shunning me because of (let me guess) my size, but hey, they are warming up to me slowly. So PRAISE GOD!

Attending school at night was also really physically tiring, but I enjoyed each lesson, I am so happy and blessed to be able to apply what I learn immediately. My field practicum is coming soon, on the 21st and 28 March, I haven really feel anxious yet.. My coursemates are.. Hopefully I dont get influenced by them..

Oh anyway, on my birthday, I recorded a birthday dedication video (click here).. I am kind of influence to appear more on youtube.. Hmm.. I dont know.. I have one more song coming up, its more like a medley than an original though..

On a rather sad note, WIP would be taking a hiatus this year.. It seems like everyone's goal is different. Well, I will still belong to WIP as long as I am breathing. I wanted the group to present on Mission Sunday.. Instead, I will record the song and put on YOUTUBE!!

Moving on, my New Year's resolutions are going well so far, except for losing weight.. hee.. yes, I will work on that as well.. just so you know, my New Year's resolutions are

1) Read through the bible 6 times
2) Win 3 Souls to Christ
3) Talk to Jesus everyday
4) Lose 30kg

Yes, last item is currently the only one that is not moving.. Ahhhh.. I am surrounded by wonderful food..

I will update more whenever I can, if i came to school from work early.. God bless!

blessed Christmas

It's been a rather hectic holiday... Thank God for seeing me through school and sunday school camp...

Thank God also for bringing my sisters in Christ back safely from Chiangmai... It was hellish for two weeks without them...

Last bt not least, God has blessed our family with a wonderful Christmas present, the youngest of the Chang, Ezekiel Chang Jong...

May he grow in favor of men and God...

On a rather nervous note, work and school is starting again soon, and I'm trusting God to see me through another year...

All praises and glory to Him!!

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When God ran (2012)

God is wonderful and marvelous. He has also been the subject of ridicule of many. I dont know what they are thinking, or whether they know exactly the consequences of their behaviour.

All I know is, God is gracious, and forgiving, He loves me, and has pulled me back to him..

As a teacher, I often have to think ahead, and start preparing for next year, i.e. 2012. And yes, I have thought of my theme song.

I hope this song touches your heart as it did to my. I did not do the animation, its done by one of God's beloved talented child.

Before I end, this is a short story i heard from a sermon.

In a church, a pastor was preaching. He stopped halfway when he saw an old man walking in. The pastor invited this old man to say a few words.

"Many years ago," the old man started, "a father, a son and his son's friend went on a fishing trip. They were caught in a storm, the boat capsized, and his son and friend fell into the sea. With only one lifeline, the father had to make a painful decision. He knows his son is saved, but his friend was not. He shouted to his son "I love you" but threw the lifeline to his friend, and watched his own son drowned. This is the Heavenly Father's love for you. He sacrificed His own Son so that you may be saved, catch the lifeline tonight." After speaking, the old man sat down.

After the service, a group of teens went up to the old man and said, "We don't believe your story, no father would do that."

The old man calmly said, "I knew you would say that. Well, I am that father, and the pastor is my son's friend..."

Will you catch that lifeline from Heaven?

Ingrate-fool

Yes, I find myself being a fool, an ungrateful one..

Nonetheless, I thank God for His timely reminder through conversations with my discipler.. We were suppose to have a simple discussion on the song I just wrote (Martyrs' Song), turned out to be a meaningful, thanksgiving, prayer session.

God is good, always.

After watching the video, if you would like to know more about the persecuted Christians around the world, please visit http://www.be-a-voice.net...

I cant promise you any rewards, but I know you can collect them from God Himself..

Woody and Buzz

Having a real soulmate is hard to find... And I am just truly thankful to God for having a friend who is as honest as me, and trust me enough to share. And I can also share my deepest hurts, darkest secrets and still be loved for who I am.

Yes, to some extent, my life sucks in many ways. I am just really grateful to God for the little pieces of Heaven He has allowed me to find here on earth. My nieces, nephews and children's smiles, time with family, finally, a real, true life friend that I can really lean on.

Yes, we are different in many ways, God made us special and unique. Our awkward misfits, gel together nicely.

For there are nights when I feel lonely, i know i have someone i can call (or text), and she would be at the other end of the line. vice versa.

Though she kept insisting that i taught her much, she didnt know how much I have learnt from her, especially when it comes to appreciating my elder sister. So much more that currently, my brain cannot process.. RAM is shrinking, but you get the idea...

It's weird how this friendship started. It started from my testimony. and i know for so many million times, i have been hurt through my frankness, and honesty, till i got so much regret. This is the only thing I have no regretted because it gained me my "Woody".

Life's blessed not because the road is easy to travel, but
it's blessed because I have someone to travel with =)