In my Potter's hands

this is how i know im at the right church...

During the worship, pastor laura said,
"as i worshipped, i saw a jar broken in pieces. A hand came and placed those pieces together. there were still cracks around, but as the hand goed over, these cracks heal. So i think God wants me to say, bring to Me your brokeness, your disappoinments, and I will heal you."

Thank You Lord.. Thank You..

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Loving things more than God

when we love certain things more than we love God, we're most likely to mistreat anyone who comes in our way....

no wonder i feel this way...

Thank God for a faithful friend in Jesus, one who never fails, one who never leaves you behind....

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Hmmm...

Galatians 5:22-23 NLT

But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!

Can a person really be saved, if the fruit of  his or her decisions made, doesnt produce the fruits of the Spirit?

I was angry, that someone older seemed to still hate me.... but  realised quickly, that was a fruit of the world, not of God's..

It has turned into prayer of blessings for her,

because if i die  and see God tomorrow, I will be able to say,

I lived my life according to Your Word...

Seriously people,

"How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone. What you ought to say is, “If the Lord wants us to, we will live and do this or that.” ( James 4:14-15 NLT)

playing my cello in public for the first time this sat!! excited!

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I really admire....

who know when they are going to die... Well, they really must have known right? coz by the amount of time they wasted doing stupid things, i guess they know what they're doing...

Ephesians 5:15-16 NLT

So be careful how you live. Don’t live like fools, but like those who are wise.
Make the most of every opportunity in these evil days.

Unfortunately for me, i guess i dont knw when i will die.. so i choose to live each moment, as much as i can, to God's glory, loving my family, my friends, doing my job as God call.

I hope I can account for all i've done when I finally see Him.. Im not as steady as most people are..

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Relationship

Today I just felt like tagging along to tracting with the others.

It was fun, i got to pair up with a close friend, and she gave a few pointers on how to present the tracts so they will take.

Not only that, i guess being cheerful and smilng a lot helps.

We then proceeded to.a.nearby coffeshop to have light snacks.. At my table, there is an.uncle, dad of a friend of my, who is suffering from dementia. It touches my heart to see the young adults who spent time talking to him.

I dont understand the.condition, so i wont be giving any advice.

I noticed how others.kept asking him questions to keep reminding him of what he remembers..

I then asked if someone would forget about their salvation.. He said yes. Then I said, perhaps we should be reminding uncle of who Jesus is, and what He did. Our names wont save, names of fruits, objects wont save, only Jesus does.

Humans will fail, Jesus wont. It saddens me, when uncle mentions his doctor dont wants to talk to him. I guess the doc has his own issues that he has to handlr but uncle didnt knw of.

However, I'm glad the young.adults quickly asked him to share about his testimony, and if he remembers who Jesus is. It took quite some effort, im glad he could remember an I'm thankful to God for that.

Later, I went to the Library, and picked up a book on Jesus.. Got reminded that we are able to love, because He first loves us.

Without Him, what should all of us look forward to?

I cant imagine living entirely by my own strength in this life, it's impossible.

I thank God for giving Jesus,
He's my friend,
my teacher,
my mentor,
my Mastor,
my Saviour..

Before I knew Him, He has already knew me!

Imagine that?

The King of kings knows my name.. How important I am to Him.

God is good, amen!

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Miracles

Jesus said, "Go forth!" and we did.
Not knowing where we were heading, 
we met a few barriers.
We were quite discouraged.
Sat down and prayed.
"Just sent someone to us!"
Constantly keeping God's Word in my mind, 
singing praises to Him,
we pressed on..

And on the far end, 
Another family was in distress. 
Calling out to Him,
"Just sent someone to us!"

Then, 
we met.

God is sovereign, He is our Shepherd,
He is Faithful..


I was always afraid of evangelising.. But these two weeks was simply amazing... 


GOD IS AMAZING!


Yes, He did keep His promise.. He told us to share and we did, and He was there, like He promised.. 


Ahhh.. Pray, pray....

Many things about tomorrow,

I don't seem to understand.

But I know who holds tomorrow

and I know 

who holds my hand.

Picture memories

2 Timothy 2:22
Run from anything that stimulates youthful lusts. Instead, pursue righteous living, faithfulness, love, and peace. Enjoy the companionship of those who call on the Lord with pure hearts.


I am grateful and thankful to God for friends who recognise my learning needs and adjust to it, kinda strengthen what i have been learning in school, intergrating people with needs.. Yes I know the picture looks childish, but hey, I can remember what the verse says, and where it came from instead of the usual, "Er, its one of Paul's letters" haha.. 

Sometimes I find that people often fails to see what other needs. Either that or they think the whole world sees like how they do. Did you really consider if anyone in your group can adjust to your plans, did you find time to know those who are following you, or are you caught up with the "I can do it, so can you" attitude?

I am so glad God called me to be an Early Childhood Educator. When a child so call misbehaves, we do not label the child as naughty, mischievous but instead, we questioned ourselves, "What does this child need?" Oftentimes, we were quick to judge and blame it on the parents or even the child themselves, but haha, guess what, sometimes its the teachers' fault! 

Whenever someone disappear, appears to be loud, appears to be rude, appear to be negative, these are people calling for help without even them knowing it. They are in need of something, someone to help them. 

We're all different, and I am so glad, Jesus knows us to the very core. I do know what my gifts are, and I know being an Evangelist is not one of them. I do share my testimony but not set numeric goals in X number of years. I am a vessel for God's use, if He wants me to share, I share. If He calls me somewhere else, I go.

For the record, the bible never states any apostles setting numeric goals in X number of years. They go where God wants them to go. It is the love from God and the love for God that pushes them. Not marketing strategies or whatsoever. 

Do not coporatized (if there's such a word) God's work. He's the CEO, not any of us.

So people, if you love God and remember what He did for you at Calvary, automatically you will share.. 

If you haven been sharing, well.. It is my prayer that you will remember what and how Jesus came to die for you and me. 

God blesses and loves.  

 208 days

Inspiration

This week was a week of decisions.

I have to decide whether to change project group in school, decide whether to stay on the track i've planned for work, decide whether to go back to the church's fellowship group..

As my life revolves mainly around church, work, school and home.. These are considered rather big decisions for me. Let me elaborate more on each item..

~ Work ~
As much as I am in love with my job and the children in school, I am more often than not, pushed, run over, bull dozed by colleagues' words of discouragement. Yes, I have choose to advocate what my lecturers had planted in my head. I advocate for more free play and giving children the liberty to choose, the liberty to voice their opinion, the liberty to be who they are.  Many disagreed with me at work, but my children's progress is evident.

Without much directions from the teacher (yours truly), my children had learn to organize sitting arrangement, sorting, math, science concepts, most importantly, social skills, during free play. Previously i insisted that they be in groups even before I met them, and i realized, they are not together socially. They DIDN'T grow socially.. It took them more than 9 months, before they engaged in cooperative/ group play. This time round, it took them, including my special need boy, less than 2 weeks. Question?

Previously, I forced my children to colour endless, boring, worksheets from the very beginning, in the end, my children and I hardly get to talk, I thought I know them, but sadly, no. This term I am determine to focus on social/ emotional and language development, now my children are communicating with me confidently.

I am physically, emotionally and mentally drained. Yet, the children's smiles and progress inspires and energized me. I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to.

~School~
I love what I am learning, and how I apply it to my work (with the on-crashing waves of opposition). The thing i dread to do in school are the group assignment. Most of the time, it feels more like an individual project.

I wont even mention the excuses the others give but hey, look at me, I have a family, I have work, I have a life too.

I am also physically, emotionally and mentally drained. Yet, what I learn and applied to work gain children's smiles, that inspires and energized me. I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to.

~Church~
I have been even more stumbled and discouraged in the fellowship of other christians. So much so that I, became one of those who discouraged others. Thus, I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to do. 

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Why all that decisions?

Been reading "Life without limits" by Nick Vujicic, and compared to him, my circumstances are like the bacteria on a cockroach legs. His book inspired me and here is a little quote from his book. The attitude one should adopt for a better life!

" Pick A 'Tude


1. An attitude of gratitude
2. An attitude of action
3. An attitude of empathy
4. An attitude of forgiveness. "

Vujicic, N., J.. (2010) Life without limits. New York: Doubleday Religion.

I would say I am learning and practising item 1 and 4.. That explains why I am STILL doing what I do.
I am thankful to God for sustaining me, for granting me wisdom to plan, organize, execute what needs to be done for three classes, and then do what needs to be done for each project work there is.

To God be the glory!

I'm ALIVE!!!!

Yes!! Just so you know!! I am alive!! hahaha.. I know I haven blogged in the longest time, that's because I am swarmed by the 101 things to do..

So thank God I am alive!! hehe..

January had been fantastic! First of all, I want to thank God for granting me wisdom to cook for my sister and take care of my nephews and niece.. If you know me well enough, I DO NOT cook unless i really feel motivated to, which usually i am not, whats more waking up at 4am everyday to cook.. hee hee.. So yes, thank God for wisdom and courage to try even different dishes. I have never been so hardworking, as in looking up recipes online and researching on nutritional values in food.. hur hur.. I am so happy that my sister liked it.

2nd of all, work has been fantastic. When i asked God for wisdom to do activities with my children, the ideas that flooded my head was overwhelming, until my assistant teacher commented that i DO NOT have 8 hands to handle.. haha!

Running between 2 classes was hectic at first, but now it is managable. I really enjoyed and loved both class. Now instead of enjoying one class-ful of hugs, I get twice! Sure there are some children still shunning me because of (let me guess) my size, but hey, they are warming up to me slowly. So PRAISE GOD!

Attending school at night was also really physically tiring, but I enjoyed each lesson, I am so happy and blessed to be able to apply what I learn immediately. My field practicum is coming soon, on the 21st and 28 March, I haven really feel anxious yet.. My coursemates are.. Hopefully I dont get influenced by them..

Oh anyway, on my birthday, I recorded a birthday dedication video (click here).. I am kind of influence to appear more on youtube.. Hmm.. I dont know.. I have one more song coming up, its more like a medley than an original though..

On a rather sad note, WIP would be taking a hiatus this year.. It seems like everyone's goal is different. Well, I will still belong to WIP as long as I am breathing. I wanted the group to present on Mission Sunday.. Instead, I will record the song and put on YOUTUBE!!

Moving on, my New Year's resolutions are going well so far, except for losing weight.. hee.. yes, I will work on that as well.. just so you know, my New Year's resolutions are

1) Read through the bible 6 times
2) Win 3 Souls to Christ
3) Talk to Jesus everyday
4) Lose 30kg

Yes, last item is currently the only one that is not moving.. Ahhhh.. I am surrounded by wonderful food..

I will update more whenever I can, if i came to school from work early.. God bless!

blessed Christmas

It's been a rather hectic holiday... Thank God for seeing me through school and sunday school camp...

Thank God also for bringing my sisters in Christ back safely from Chiangmai... It was hellish for two weeks without them...

Last bt not least, God has blessed our family with a wonderful Christmas present, the youngest of the Chang, Ezekiel Chang Jong...

May he grow in favor of men and God...

On a rather nervous note, work and school is starting again soon, and I'm trusting God to see me through another year...

All praises and glory to Him!!

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When God ran (2012)

God is wonderful and marvelous. He has also been the subject of ridicule of many. I dont know what they are thinking, or whether they know exactly the consequences of their behaviour.

All I know is, God is gracious, and forgiving, He loves me, and has pulled me back to him..

As a teacher, I often have to think ahead, and start preparing for next year, i.e. 2012. And yes, I have thought of my theme song.

I hope this song touches your heart as it did to my. I did not do the animation, its done by one of God's beloved talented child.

Before I end, this is a short story i heard from a sermon.

In a church, a pastor was preaching. He stopped halfway when he saw an old man walking in. The pastor invited this old man to say a few words.

"Many years ago," the old man started, "a father, a son and his son's friend went on a fishing trip. They were caught in a storm, the boat capsized, and his son and friend fell into the sea. With only one lifeline, the father had to make a painful decision. He knows his son is saved, but his friend was not. He shouted to his son "I love you" but threw the lifeline to his friend, and watched his own son drowned. This is the Heavenly Father's love for you. He sacrificed His own Son so that you may be saved, catch the lifeline tonight." After speaking, the old man sat down.

After the service, a group of teens went up to the old man and said, "We don't believe your story, no father would do that."

The old man calmly said, "I knew you would say that. Well, I am that father, and the pastor is my son's friend..."

Will you catch that lifeline from Heaven?

Ingrate-fool

Yes, I find myself being a fool, an ungrateful one..

Nonetheless, I thank God for His timely reminder through conversations with my discipler.. We were suppose to have a simple discussion on the song I just wrote (Martyrs' Song), turned out to be a meaningful, thanksgiving, prayer session.

God is good, always.

After watching the video, if you would like to know more about the persecuted Christians around the world, please visit http://www.be-a-voice.net...

I cant promise you any rewards, but I know you can collect them from God Himself..

Woody and Buzz

Having a real soulmate is hard to find... And I am just truly thankful to God for having a friend who is as honest as me, and trust me enough to share. And I can also share my deepest hurts, darkest secrets and still be loved for who I am.

Yes, to some extent, my life sucks in many ways. I am just really grateful to God for the little pieces of Heaven He has allowed me to find here on earth. My nieces, nephews and children's smiles, time with family, finally, a real, true life friend that I can really lean on.

Yes, we are different in many ways, God made us special and unique. Our awkward misfits, gel together nicely.

For there are nights when I feel lonely, i know i have someone i can call (or text), and she would be at the other end of the line. vice versa.

Though she kept insisting that i taught her much, she didnt know how much I have learnt from her, especially when it comes to appreciating my elder sister. So much more that currently, my brain cannot process.. RAM is shrinking, but you get the idea...

It's weird how this friendship started. It started from my testimony. and i know for so many million times, i have been hurt through my frankness, and honesty, till i got so much regret. This is the only thing I have no regretted because it gained me my "Woody".

Life's blessed not because the road is easy to travel, but
it's blessed because I have someone to travel with =)

2011 Kindergarten Concert

I am thankful to God for seeing me through, the process of script writing, the whole concept of the play, and then to bear through the pain of seeing it being changed to another concept.

Thank God it's over, parents are happy, children are happy. I am just glad its over..

thank God for the many helping hands..

Blessed 21st

It was 7 years ago, when I celebrated my own 21st. I was surrounded with buffet, mindless chattering, and seriously nothing spiritual.

I thank God for the opportunity to work together with Rachel's mum to plan for her party. It ended later than expected, but I am still very happy that it went so well.

Thank God for Jaime and Jasmine for putting up those really nice and sweet decorations around the house.

Thank God for allowing me to prank Rachel twice.. Hee hee... I think have to wait awhile more for the video, and the song I wrote for her..

Thank God for the wisdom to pen the lyrics with the initials that says "Happy Twenty First Rach"

Thank God for moving hearts to contribute to mega voices to be sent to Thailand =)

Thank God the party is a success and the birthday girl, quoting her text to me "smiling myself silly" haha...

Thank God i still survived after the whole day crawling, rolling, climbing and shuffling with the children..

God is good =)

This week I felt really blessed. I know the previous weeks were torturous, or even before that, but God's always there. When I got the results back from my Human Growth and Development, I was leaping for joy! It was a paper that I expected to have done badly for, i never expected that the teacher actually understood what I was writing because I dont even understand what i was writing about!

And God has been faithful in listening to my prayers for my niece, Hanna. She did well for her math paper, thats the only result i knew so far, but still thank God.

Today before I left work, something spoilt my mood. But i guess that was just a listen to mind my own business. Sometimes, others dont appreciate my concern or voice, i just shouldnt say right..

Anyway, God is marvelous, and He always is my Shepherd.

Broke

Seems to be a funny topic for thanksgiving..

But I am just thankful to God that even though I am seriously eating into my savings again, coz of 2 medical trips.. I can still tithe!! =)

I love you my Abba Father, a bit less than how You love me, still, I try my best.

Occupations

I am really happy and grateful to God for calling me to be a teacher.

Coz in one single moment, I can be a singer, dancer, and aerobic instructor, and have so much audiences who enjoyed themselves.

Today, i whipped out my phone, plugged it into the music room's high-fi system, blast the speakers with different music where the children and I danced our minds away.

When i asked the children what they want to be when they grow up, some told me singers, doctors, dentist, etc. But what struck me the most, is when some children replied, "I want to be a teacher!"

That really brightens up my day.

Thank You Lord for all these wonderful children who confirms the calling You have for me...

The Lost Pup

I literally dragged my feet to YAF (Young Adults' Fellowship).

First of all, i was super pissed with myself, for being a lousy example to my nieces and nephews for missing fellowships on Sat, secondly, i had to choose to go back on the topic of finding Life partner. double -.-"...

I looked at my journal and i thought to myself, how was I going to fill up the "Thanksgiving".. Thank God, the type of "nice to have you back" comments were few, if not i would have walked right out of the meeting..

Im sorry, but i am just in a super lousy mood today...

Anyway, after the long session, with questions asked mainly by the guys, i left with Rachel. My plan was to take the transport back with her and come back home again. While waiting for the bus, Rachel saw the cute puppy following a man around, and commented "SO CUTE!"

I turned around and saw the man, avoiding the pup, so I asked him if the pup belongs to him, and he said no, not mine. So immediately, i got up and attended to the pup while asking Rachel to call SPCA. Rachel had to rush home, so i sat there and Simba (yes, thats the name we gave) was my buddy for the next hour.

In my heart, i was praying that his mother will not come growling at me for taking her pup. Unfortunately, looks like someone abandon this beautiful creature..

So how did this day turn to be a wonderful day? I think it was simply God's plan for me to go attend YAF, and walked Rachel to the bus stop. God has a plan for everyone, and everything. If i was not there, Rachel said she would have to leave him behind, and getting worried whether SPCA would have found him.

Here are some pictures I took while waiting =)

On the way back, I cant help feeling like the lost pup.. I was lost and unwanted, Jesus found me and took me in His arms. And like the little pup, i was snuggling and all comfortable. When the pup awoken, he whimpers and wanted to get down, and away from my arms. Knowing that it was dangerous, i held on to him. Likewise, once I was comfortable in Jesus' arms, i wanted to go and do things my way,

I just thank God that Jesus held on tightly to me, coz He knows the dangers lurking around.. =)

THank you

I haven been grateful.. And that is not nice..

On a random day, on the way back home from school, right in my little journal, i started writing thanksgiving.

My mum always say, "要懂得报恩". In english, it simply means, one must learn to be appreciate and repaying favours. I know its very much in her buddhism terms when she said it, but i think i need that philosophy in my life daily.

Philippians 4:6 (NLT) says, "Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. "

In other words, all the crappy things happening, God is there to listen. And He has already done so much, i have yet spent enough time to thank Him for.

I apologized if i ever caused anyone to stumble, to lose faith.

I'm attending another module for my course. My teacher reminded that we, as teachers, need to have a philosophy. So i thought I'll come up with one, which was being taught in another staminar, i just extended it.

My philosophy as a Christian, and as a teacher is to be a

Faithful Friend, that is
Always Available, and to be a
Teachable Teacher.

So from this day on, (maybe i have already said so many times before, anywho), this day on, i will have blog entries for thanksgiving =)

Have a blessed day!