Where art thou, "off" button?

I need to desperately switch off for real...

I'm breaking down physically, mentally, emotionally, and now its affecting me spiritually..

I totally didnt concentrate on my Quiet time when I was doing..

I cannot concentrate on my work, and whatever is there to concentrate..

I felt like a zombie when people talk to me, i still laugh, joke and talk on cue.. But i feel totally dry.....

I need my sleep.. and is not coming.. Been skipping my naps, hoping i can sleep at night, not working... Took some camomile tea but not working too.. Gonna dry more tea though.. I like the warm feeling... 

I need to cry, i think my eyes too dry...

I'm still having nightmares with the little amount of sleep i get..

God.. Please...

Feeling a little numb...

I think the drought season came....

Even during days like these, i am looking forward to my rainbow days with God..

Gotta keep counting my blessings, stop the self destruction..

Keep looking at Jesus, not men, at Heaven, not earth.

Problem is i just wanna go to my Heavenly Home.. and that's a bit not good in some sense..

God.. Help me..