Like yourself..
Because we tend to be selfish, and our selfishness hurts..
If you know a friend who do not answer phone calls but rather text, would you still call?
Anyway, this is a New year.
Jesus, thank You for being true to me.
Cant wait to meet my children!! :)
Celia shared with me of a dad who has to ask for basic needs from others.
Oh how the Holy Spirit has soften us so much, and pushes us to love His creation..
Lord, if You are willing, use me to help them. If I'm ever rich Lord, remind me to bless those in need. I know You know that, I'm not ready for big wealths yet, but I really want to help those families. You love eVry child, and there are children suffering everyday.. Use me to help You.. Teach me to help them...
It is my dream, that if one day, i'm ever rich, i'll build a condo for the needy, not collecting rent, giving them food and NTUC vouchers, help them get jobs, start their own business. That condo will be called, "Cloudy Heights". As you can see from the picture (a lovely gift i got from my best friendl, its a dream forming :)
Attended a wedding of my ex crush... I think it has been about 9 or 10 years since..
I guessed it takes that long..
At each wedding, i kept asking myself,
Am I ready to see you walk down that asle with ur dad?
Am I ready to hear you say "I do" to your partner?
Am I ready to bless you wholeheartedly and lift up my cup to cheer you on?
I think I need a proper 10 years from now..
I"m still praying for you. There will be someone who will love you, lots more than I ever did.
Thank God for granting speed in reading and understanding these days.. In less than a week, i finished reading about 5 or 6 novels... The last one being "The Rapture: In a twinkling of an eye" by Tim Lahaye. I've also finished "The Jesus Chronicles" series, by the same author..
"The Rapture" gave me a grave reminder of Jesus coming back again, as well as the judgement for saints... How each saint presented themselves before Jesus, and watched, as their works were tested through fire.Time wasted were burnt away like hay, wood and stubble.. Things done for the glory of God came out as gold and precious stones.
I've read it in scriptures, but somehow reading in through a story, impresses more on me.. Have i wasted more time?
I am excited about Jesus coming back again, yet at the same time, i am nt sure if I had done enuf...
"The Jesus chronicles" reminded me to be grateful and appreciative of the bible I have... I broke down in tears to see what some of the apostles have to go through..
I miss you, my friend.. What we choose to do, is right in His eye, though it hurts, still hurts.. Hang on to Him, keep your eyes on Him, He'll lead you through.
Truth is, i will parish someday. Cant be here forever, but where we're heading.. That's eternity... A right fellowship with Jesus in heaven, forever.. :)
Yesterday i finally
took up the courage to ask the Lord to bless her with a partner who will love God and her.. Someone who can be thrice better than me.. Someone who can love her officially.
Been praying for my own partner... Come what may, Lord.. You have every right ro my life, I know You'll give me the one I need to walk with me till I die..
Just wonders... how long more before I stop hurting....
Anyway, this really sweet picture of Ezekiel and Isaiah reminds me of my love for my best friend..
this is how i know im at the right church...
During the worship, pastor laura said,
"as i worshipped, i saw a jar broken in pieces. A hand came and placed those pieces together. there were still cracks around, but as the hand goed over, these cracks heal. So i think God wants me to say, bring to Me your brokeness, your disappoinments, and I will heal you."
Thank You Lord.. Thank You..
Sometimes I feel trapped in a world filled with selfish liars and cheaters... Even people of the same faith.
I felt this is a year, i've tripped so many times over those stumbling blocks, landed on my face and ate dust, sometimes shit..
Sometimes I simply got so tired getting up, i just wanna lie there till Jesus comes...
Sometimes i just wanna roll over to the broad way, and back to my old life.. But that thought is revolting, disgusting and not to mention unhealthy.
so i'll roll to my back, with my body covered with dust, dirt and some shits, the only way left to look is up...
Haven look at the sky in a long time...
Its funny how some wounds cut so deep, they never heal.. or maybe thats just cause im diabetic..
nonetheless, im tired.... really awfully tired.....
I know im only accountable for myself at the end of the day...
but i'm just so tired....
