blessed Christmas

It's been a rather hectic holiday... Thank God for seeing me through school and sunday school camp...

Thank God also for bringing my sisters in Christ back safely from Chiangmai... It was hellish for two weeks without them...

Last bt not least, God has blessed our family with a wonderful Christmas present, the youngest of the Chang, Ezekiel Chang Jong...

May he grow in favor of men and God...

On a rather nervous note, work and school is starting again soon, and I'm trusting God to see me through another year...

All praises and glory to Him!!

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When God ran (2012)

God is wonderful and marvelous. He has also been the subject of ridicule of many. I dont know what they are thinking, or whether they know exactly the consequences of their behaviour.

All I know is, God is gracious, and forgiving, He loves me, and has pulled me back to him..

As a teacher, I often have to think ahead, and start preparing for next year, i.e. 2012. And yes, I have thought of my theme song.

I hope this song touches your heart as it did to my. I did not do the animation, its done by one of God's beloved talented child.

Before I end, this is a short story i heard from a sermon.

In a church, a pastor was preaching. He stopped halfway when he saw an old man walking in. The pastor invited this old man to say a few words.

"Many years ago," the old man started, "a father, a son and his son's friend went on a fishing trip. They were caught in a storm, the boat capsized, and his son and friend fell into the sea. With only one lifeline, the father had to make a painful decision. He knows his son is saved, but his friend was not. He shouted to his son "I love you" but threw the lifeline to his friend, and watched his own son drowned. This is the Heavenly Father's love for you. He sacrificed His own Son so that you may be saved, catch the lifeline tonight." After speaking, the old man sat down.

After the service, a group of teens went up to the old man and said, "We don't believe your story, no father would do that."

The old man calmly said, "I knew you would say that. Well, I am that father, and the pastor is my son's friend..."

Will you catch that lifeline from Heaven?

Ingrate-fool

Yes, I find myself being a fool, an ungrateful one..

Nonetheless, I thank God for His timely reminder through conversations with my discipler.. We were suppose to have a simple discussion on the song I just wrote (Martyrs' Song), turned out to be a meaningful, thanksgiving, prayer session.

God is good, always.

After watching the video, if you would like to know more about the persecuted Christians around the world, please visit http://www.be-a-voice.net...

I cant promise you any rewards, but I know you can collect them from God Himself..

Woody and Buzz

Having a real soulmate is hard to find... And I am just truly thankful to God for having a friend who is as honest as me, and trust me enough to share. And I can also share my deepest hurts, darkest secrets and still be loved for who I am.

Yes, to some extent, my life sucks in many ways. I am just really grateful to God for the little pieces of Heaven He has allowed me to find here on earth. My nieces, nephews and children's smiles, time with family, finally, a real, true life friend that I can really lean on.

Yes, we are different in many ways, God made us special and unique. Our awkward misfits, gel together nicely.

For there are nights when I feel lonely, i know i have someone i can call (or text), and she would be at the other end of the line. vice versa.

Though she kept insisting that i taught her much, she didnt know how much I have learnt from her, especially when it comes to appreciating my elder sister. So much more that currently, my brain cannot process.. RAM is shrinking, but you get the idea...

It's weird how this friendship started. It started from my testimony. and i know for so many million times, i have been hurt through my frankness, and honesty, till i got so much regret. This is the only thing I have no regretted because it gained me my "Woody".

Life's blessed not because the road is easy to travel, but
it's blessed because I have someone to travel with =)

2011 Kindergarten Concert

I am thankful to God for seeing me through, the process of script writing, the whole concept of the play, and then to bear through the pain of seeing it being changed to another concept.

Thank God it's over, parents are happy, children are happy. I am just glad its over..

thank God for the many helping hands..

Blessed 21st

It was 7 years ago, when I celebrated my own 21st. I was surrounded with buffet, mindless chattering, and seriously nothing spiritual.

I thank God for the opportunity to work together with Rachel's mum to plan for her party. It ended later than expected, but I am still very happy that it went so well.

Thank God for Jaime and Jasmine for putting up those really nice and sweet decorations around the house.

Thank God for allowing me to prank Rachel twice.. Hee hee... I think have to wait awhile more for the video, and the song I wrote for her..

Thank God for the wisdom to pen the lyrics with the initials that says "Happy Twenty First Rach"

Thank God for moving hearts to contribute to mega voices to be sent to Thailand =)

Thank God the party is a success and the birthday girl, quoting her text to me "smiling myself silly" haha...

Thank God i still survived after the whole day crawling, rolling, climbing and shuffling with the children..

God is good =)

This week I felt really blessed. I know the previous weeks were torturous, or even before that, but God's always there. When I got the results back from my Human Growth and Development, I was leaping for joy! It was a paper that I expected to have done badly for, i never expected that the teacher actually understood what I was writing because I dont even understand what i was writing about!

And God has been faithful in listening to my prayers for my niece, Hanna. She did well for her math paper, thats the only result i knew so far, but still thank God.

Today before I left work, something spoilt my mood. But i guess that was just a listen to mind my own business. Sometimes, others dont appreciate my concern or voice, i just shouldnt say right..

Anyway, God is marvelous, and He always is my Shepherd.

Broke

Seems to be a funny topic for thanksgiving..

But I am just thankful to God that even though I am seriously eating into my savings again, coz of 2 medical trips.. I can still tithe!! =)

I love you my Abba Father, a bit less than how You love me, still, I try my best.

Occupations

I am really happy and grateful to God for calling me to be a teacher.

Coz in one single moment, I can be a singer, dancer, and aerobic instructor, and have so much audiences who enjoyed themselves.

Today, i whipped out my phone, plugged it into the music room's high-fi system, blast the speakers with different music where the children and I danced our minds away.

When i asked the children what they want to be when they grow up, some told me singers, doctors, dentist, etc. But what struck me the most, is when some children replied, "I want to be a teacher!"

That really brightens up my day.

Thank You Lord for all these wonderful children who confirms the calling You have for me...

The Lost Pup

I literally dragged my feet to YAF (Young Adults' Fellowship).

First of all, i was super pissed with myself, for being a lousy example to my nieces and nephews for missing fellowships on Sat, secondly, i had to choose to go back on the topic of finding Life partner. double -.-"...

I looked at my journal and i thought to myself, how was I going to fill up the "Thanksgiving".. Thank God, the type of "nice to have you back" comments were few, if not i would have walked right out of the meeting..

Im sorry, but i am just in a super lousy mood today...

Anyway, after the long session, with questions asked mainly by the guys, i left with Rachel. My plan was to take the transport back with her and come back home again. While waiting for the bus, Rachel saw the cute puppy following a man around, and commented "SO CUTE!"

I turned around and saw the man, avoiding the pup, so I asked him if the pup belongs to him, and he said no, not mine. So immediately, i got up and attended to the pup while asking Rachel to call SPCA. Rachel had to rush home, so i sat there and Simba (yes, thats the name we gave) was my buddy for the next hour.

In my heart, i was praying that his mother will not come growling at me for taking her pup. Unfortunately, looks like someone abandon this beautiful creature..

So how did this day turn to be a wonderful day? I think it was simply God's plan for me to go attend YAF, and walked Rachel to the bus stop. God has a plan for everyone, and everything. If i was not there, Rachel said she would have to leave him behind, and getting worried whether SPCA would have found him.

Here are some pictures I took while waiting =)

On the way back, I cant help feeling like the lost pup.. I was lost and unwanted, Jesus found me and took me in His arms. And like the little pup, i was snuggling and all comfortable. When the pup awoken, he whimpers and wanted to get down, and away from my arms. Knowing that it was dangerous, i held on to him. Likewise, once I was comfortable in Jesus' arms, i wanted to go and do things my way,

I just thank God that Jesus held on tightly to me, coz He knows the dangers lurking around.. =)

Abused... Not broken..

Having attended a few modules, i get to know and understand myself better. For example, Why am I so eccentric? Why is my behaviour so unpredictable, or more like very predictable, why am I so emotionally frail?

The reason is simply because I was abused as a child. In all aspects, even sexually, though my parents didnt mean to.

I have no idea how many people out there, had been abused, or are still being abuse. I can tell you, i know how you feel, i understand what you are going through. No, i wont tell you everything will be alright because though the wounds heal, the scars remains.

One simple example is this "indifferent" feeling I have towards any guy. My friend asked me once, "What exactly do you expect from a guy?" I was quite shocked that someone asked me this, but my answer was immediate, "I expect them to fail".

If you want to talk about pride, I definitely have more pride than a guy because I am out to prove, I can do anything better than guys. This is ReALLY a wrong thought to have, and believe me, I am telling myself, i dont need to prove anything to them, i just need to concentrate if I AM following Christ.

Forgive me brothers, if you really find it hard to talk to me. Scars left by my father and the few "good" men I've met is simply too deep. IT IS a thorn in my flesh, and I KNOW Jesus' grace is more than sufficient. Most of the guys in church had fail, even the ladies, even me. Coz simply, we are all sinners saved by grace. One way or another we will and have failed.

So therefore, this is just a note to self, or to anybody out there who is reading. Life's never easy, but it's jsut how we grow out of it. I guess that's why I am an Early Childhood educator. I want to be there if any of my child suffers abuse of any kind.

The sun always shine after the storm..

THank you

I haven been grateful.. And that is not nice..

On a random day, on the way back home from school, right in my little journal, i started writing thanksgiving.

My mum always say, "要懂得报恩". In english, it simply means, one must learn to be appreciate and repaying favours. I know its very much in her buddhism terms when she said it, but i think i need that philosophy in my life daily.

Philippians 4:6 (NLT) says, "Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. "

In other words, all the crappy things happening, God is there to listen. And He has already done so much, i have yet spent enough time to thank Him for.

I apologized if i ever caused anyone to stumble, to lose faith.

I'm attending another module for my course. My teacher reminded that we, as teachers, need to have a philosophy. So i thought I'll come up with one, which was being taught in another staminar, i just extended it.

My philosophy as a Christian, and as a teacher is to be a

Faithful Friend, that is
Always Available, and to be a
Teachable Teacher.

So from this day on, (maybe i have already said so many times before, anywho), this day on, i will have blog entries for thanksgiving =)

Have a blessed day!

Let me be...

Sometimes I get it, when friends are trying to comfort me.. But trying to relate with what i am going through is unneccessary, and sometimes I find it insulting. If you realise that I stop talking, it means you have lost me.

I am weird i know, there are many things I want to say, am sometimes I spoke, nobody heard.

So i ended up just keeping quiet.

To those that I have spoken, i much regretted telling you what happen, coz might have stumble you or even worst, after you tried encouraging me, still doesnt work, it'll make you feel worst.

Sometimes i find the idiom true, laugh, and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone.. Honestly, i rather do it alone.

Just let me be.

Things we dont understand

It hurts to talk about how strong your friend was, and then to say, she has went home with the Lord. It should give hope to the believer, it should encourage the one who is suffering.

I thank God for Aunty Christine, its been almost 5 months since she has went home with the Lord.. Even then, her story of her fight against cancer still lives on. I didnt understand why she has to leave, maybe i still dont understand. But the journal of that few entries that we wrote together, especially hers, make sense now.

I am going to give this journal to someone who is going through the same situation for the first time. Aunty Christine probably felt the same way when she was diagnosed. Her children were all very young, and she fought on for 10 years..

I really pray that this journal would encourage.

I am still confused whether I am being called by God to teach. confused by the voice that I am hearing, confused by the advices I get.

God help us...

Vienna boys

Currently using peiling's iPhone to type... Today was 2nd day escorting the boys to universal studio.... Tried some buttery popcorn, my heart almost went crashing down... Lalalalalal

2011 Children's Day

For my nieces and nephews... God's most wonderful presents in my life.. =)

Swarmed....

with work!!

Went recce at Sentosa today, came back and went swimming with my niece and nephews.. Sprained my left shoulder two nights ago, felt better this morning.. Had so much fun creating waves for the young ones just now, i re-sprained my left shoulder.. URGH.. why i so playful.. I'm getting old, gotta remember that, or else, my body is remembering that for me..

Anyway, thank God for good weather. The recce went well, my head was swimming with ideas on the way back. Just finished planning for the outing =).

Had a rather serious talk with my sister.. I hope to be somebody's mum, and I am commiting myself to save, even though I really dont know if i can be.. Or at least, his legal guardian..

On a happier note, Sis Charissa and Heng family came back from Canada! And I was really really happy when they presented me with the Auto Harp.. Ahhhhhhhh... It's out of tune, but i still enjoyed playing with it.. Hee hee..

Well, this week has been swarmed.. And i have more things that need to be done!! Cant wait for childrens' day, am planning something quite big.. Praying i can complete it on time.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Broke

nope.. nothing dramatic.. Just feeling rather light in the pockets.. No thanks to my few weeks of sickness... Ahhhhhhhh....

Last day

Of the holiday that is, not my life.. Haha, sorry if i caused a bit of panic there.


I am enjoying my last half an hour of my holiday, before surrendering to my sleepiness.. Post weren't be updated as much, so FYI beforehand..

Less talk, more enjoyment!!

The Narrow Way

Matthew 7:13-14
A: The Narrow Way
B: 13
C: I will choose the Narrow Way


Today's QT's on a different passage. As much as I enjoyed myself during the camp, my thoughts kept drifting back to someone. On the way back, I had the same guilt feeling. So i wrote a short song, just to tell myself, the commitment I'm giving to God.. 

Commitment

According to the dictionary, Commitment means sticking to the purpose, staying engaged to your obligation, etc.

Aunty Annie brought into perspective, God's commitment to us (John 3:16). And have us weighed, what in return, are we commiting to God??

That sentosa trip (in the previous post) cost a hefty sum. I told her she could ask a receipt from the church, and she could get tax rebate. She shrugged it off and said it was for the children... My eyes almost rolled all the way back home when i saw the amount... Phew.. Enough to cover all my school fees........

Anyway, she shared this joke.

A pig and a chicken was walking along a road when they saw a breakfast sign.

"Today's Breakfast!! Ham and eggs."

"Hmph! this is what our contribution to the society is!" The chicken said.

The pig looked at the chicken, then at the sign and said,

"For you, it's a contribution. For us, it's a commitment."

I thought it really made sense, God asked for commitment, but i think most of the time, we were just giving contributions... hmm.. Time to rethink..

Children's Fellowship Camp Day 1

First of all, my job scope is.... NOTHING!! YAY!! I thought about the free time I get to just mingle with the children.. Well, I did mingle with the children, in between, i get to play the piano for singsipiration, the IT person for computer and projector, group mentor?? Hur hur, all I did was make sure the children don't get lost with the sea creatures.

Yes, we went to Sentosa. And I was as excited as the children. Because I have never been to underwater world.. Right outside the entrance, there were two pythons. Real pythons for phototaking.. I managed to touch one and i was giggling like mad, and the child next to me was staring 0.0....

And YES!! I finally got to see dolphins!!!! They were suppose to be pink dolphins, but somehow they skin had a certain blemish, i dont know whether it's due to our tropical heat or something... Sorry dolphins.. BUT THEY WERE FANTASTIC!! Again, I was so excited, but nobody's staring coz they were just as amazed but the lovely mammals..

The fun thing was they host called for a volunteer, to go to the water and to touch and feed the dolpins. Di Xuan, one of our children, put up his hand!! So brave!! He was really shy, but he did it!! Ahhhhhhh, all the children were all rooting for him, including me. And we were screaming for him.. Haha.. He got his pants wet but it's worth it. He told me later, the dolphin felt like facial cream.. I wanted to ask, you know how facial cream feels like meh??

Next we went for the 4D rides, we only missed out the last one, which involves the shooting one. But doesnt matter, the first two was really fun!! I had to sit with the smaller ones, because they were scared. A K1 boy kept asking me if the next ride would have something "jumping out". Well, i guess the 3D effects ain't such a good idea for younger children.

Anyway, i was suppose to bring a bunch of them back to church, those who were going home, and rush to my night class, but the bus broke down, so we took a cab. We were really late, because the quenes for the rides were long. By the time i reached my class, i was 1 and 1/2 hours late... Thank God my teacher let me sign in.

Today Aunty Annie talked to the youths about commitment, will share in the next post.

Oh ya... I am getting sick again.. >.<....

On the other side

There's a reason why sometimes
       we struggle with certain sins.
Because someone on the other side
      may have the same problem.
Now, we can say
     "I know how you feel" with
more sincerity and
     "Let me pray with you" with
more care.
     God doesn't make mistake,
so if we ever want to ask
     "Why me, Lord?"
Maybe, just maybe
     He wants us to be that
someone on the other end for
     somebody else.

Yippie!

Today I managed to finish the worksheets before school starts.. Tomorrow is Children's and Junior's Fellowship.. Still praying that I can go, not too sure if I want to go and infect the people there, especially the children...

Anyways, I created another wordsearch!!! This time for the book of Leviticus!

Interactive part 2: Exodus

Quickly did another one for Exodus.. INTERACTIVE!!!!! FUN!!!

Here's a screenshot of me trying my own puzzle...