This week was a week of decisions.
I have to decide whether to change project group in school, decide whether to stay on the track i've planned for work, decide whether to go back to the church's fellowship group..
As my life revolves mainly around church, work, school and home.. These are considered rather big decisions for me. Let me elaborate more on each item..
~ Work ~
As much as I am in love with my job and the children in school, I am more often than not, pushed, run over, bull dozed by colleagues' words of discouragement. Yes, I have choose to advocate what my lecturers had planted in my head. I advocate for more free play and giving children the liberty to choose, the liberty to voice their opinion, the liberty to be who they are. Many disagreed with me at work, but my children's progress is evident.
Without much directions from the teacher (yours truly), my children had learn to organize sitting arrangement, sorting, math, science concepts, most importantly, social skills, during free play. Previously i insisted that they be in groups even before I met them, and i realized, they are not together socially. They DIDN'T grow socially.. It took them more than 9 months, before they engaged in cooperative/ group play. This time round, it took them, including my special need boy, less than 2 weeks. Question?
Previously, I forced my children to colour endless, boring, worksheets from the very beginning, in the end, my children and I hardly get to talk, I thought I know them, but sadly, no. This term I am determine to focus on social/ emotional and language development, now my children are communicating with me confidently.
I am physically, emotionally and mentally drained. Yet, the children's smiles and progress inspires and energized me. I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to.
~School~
I love what I am learning, and how I apply it to my work (with the on-crashing waves of opposition). The thing i dread to do in school are the group assignment. Most of the time, it feels more like an individual project.
I wont even mention the excuses the others give but hey, look at me, I have a family, I have work, I have a life too.
I am also physically, emotionally and mentally drained. Yet, what I learn and applied to work gain children's smiles, that inspires and energized me. I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to.
~Church~
I have been even more stumbled and discouraged in the fellowship of other christians. So much so that I, became one of those who discouraged others. Thus, I WILL continue to do, what the Lord has called me to do.
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Why all that decisions?
Been reading "Life without limits" by Nick Vujicic, and compared to him, my circumstances are like the bacteria on a cockroach legs. His book inspired me and here is a little quote from his book. The attitude one should adopt for a better life!
" Pick A 'Tude
1. An attitude of gratitude
2. An attitude of action
3. An attitude of empathy
4. An attitude of forgiveness. "
Vujicic, N., J.. (2010) Life without limits. New York: Doubleday Religion.
I would say I am learning and practising item 1 and 4.. That explains why I am STILL doing what I do.
I am thankful to God for sustaining me, for granting me wisdom to plan, organize, execute what needs to be done for three classes, and then do what needs to be done for each project work there is.
To God be the glory!
